as always, i learned something from the sermon today.
actions speak louder than words. and this i believe, is definitely true. in a religious point of view, it's like this. Some people say they're Christians but dont do anything to back themselves up. Some people say they believe in God and love the Lord but dont do anything to show it. How can we call ourselves Christians when we dont have the heart to do God's work? when people say i want to be saved but i dont want to go to church, it doesn't make sense. i believe people can still be Christians when they dont go to church, BUT what i'm trying to say here is people should have enough heart to WANT to go to church. saying you're something and showing it is totally different. there are people who dont have to go around announcing that they're christians because people can just tell by the actions they show. i wish all of us were like this. at Jeriel's funeral, what the pastor told us was just so moving. I love how he was a son of God and had a such strong faith. So, the pastor was telling us a memory he had of jeriel. this one morning, jeriel was at church super early. the pastor was surprised to see him here so early, yet at the same time proud to see such a young teenager seeking the Lord. What was more surprising than seeing Jeriel at church so early was that Jeriel told the pastor he took the bus to get here early. obviously the first thought that came up in the pastor's mind was "why didn't you call me or ask your parents to drop you off?". Jeriel replied that he didnt' want to bother anyone. He just wanted to come to the House of the Lord. This happened after jeriel was diagnosed with cancer. if someone with such a serious disease took the time and effort to go to church, it shames me to see us, in perfect health and condition refusing to go to church because "we dont feel like it". it hurts me so much when my parents tell me i can't go to church cause i have to do homework or something -.- really? i'm not gonna be doing hw... just let me go to church. i hate it when they tell me not to go. it's not like they go with me, it's jsut me and my yaris. LOL it hurts me even more to see my little sister not attending. she never wants to go to church. i dont know what to do to help her... i try to ask her but you can't force someone to have faith or grow spiritually. it's something one must want for her/himself. it hurts me to see my friends who dont believe in salvation. it makes me so sad to see them doing things that are against God's will. i mean, everyone sins, i do things that i shouldn't be doing also, but the difference is knowing that it's wrong and asking for forgiveness. then, trying not to fall back into that same temptation. but, there's no need for sorrow now, cause i have
hope. i dont know what or how i'm going to do it. i dont even know if i'm going to be the one to do it. but somehow, someone, somewhere will help all those who need to be reborn. i know it. (: OHH DANG this blog is so like.. deep HAHHAHA
so today, after church, the senior girls were supposed to go to Santa Monica to go biking! i was so excited!!! but... it was too cold ): so we went to watch a movie instead. we watched 'Precious'. seriously, this movie broke my heart. it's about this black girl who lives in the ghettoest of the ghettos and her life at home is like hell. her mom is like a lazy crazy beezy who hates her daughter cause her husband rapes her daughter. it's like.. so sad ): Precious is so strong. she has such a bright future ahead of her if she tries. the teacher was so pretty too ! and so nice and so OMG! so kind hearted. i liked the movie. (: ;lajd;klasj but it was so sad. okay LOL i said that already. LOL that's all for today! (:
& jeriel, you're already being missed. (i have alot i wanna write about him, but later. cause i wanna write when i have time so my words can express exactly what i want... iono if that makes sense but yea)