poorbaby

quick update: today mo brought me and ms judy panera bread and we all ate during sixth. sooo good (: and i did all my homework last night so it was a good day. i told remy i was going to eat in yearbook from now on but i couldn't keep that promise. i thought i wasn'tbusy but i totally forgot we still have parent conferences! so i was in a cabinet meeting during pride and a parent teacher conference coordinator meeting at lunch. sorry reemy! i forgot i had a meeting! just an fyi, i can't go tomorrow either cause it's the general meeting! today at work, it was the cutest/saddest thing ever. angel, karen's other cousin, came out and told me that joanne was crying. i asked her why and she took me to her. it was so heartbreaking! she was liek sobbing! and her eyes were all red. i waved and she waved while wiping her like waterfalls. the teacher told me she was crying casue she jsut took a test and i guess she didn't do well. ): ): ): cutie! i tried to confort her but the teacher said to ust give her time cause angel needed to go to class. but i love lil joanne so much!!!! <3 and i was supposed to go tutor johnny tonight but it got cancelled. soooo i'm here. LOL so early, i can finish hw early and should study for acts. (: i feel very motvated right now. actually, this entire day. i hope i stay like this. (: OMG gossip girl today too !! :D

please no more mercy west

wow. i just watched grey's anatomy. it was soooooooo good. i know, i know, i say everything was so good. but it's cause i watch really good shows. grey's anatomy has got to be my all time favorite thought. omg. efffffffffffffff the mercy west people. piss me off. seriously, if they're staying this whole time, i dont know how long i can take this. seattle grace is NOT mercy west. ew. go away ugly annoying oompa loompas. and i hate hate hate this budget cut thing. first george dies. izzie gets cancer and meridith can't do anything for months! like seriously. why so much bad news? (OMG. i uploaded pictures and like everything i wrote disappeared from here on. i wrote alot too. let's try again) and this episode was worse! the chief fired izzie. casue of one mistake. i understand like one mistake can kill a life but people learn from mistakes. and it's the freaking mercy west people who are making things to hectic. they're so annoying! not only that! this ugly red head girl took george's cubby. izzie told her nicely that they seattle grace doctors leave that cubby empty for a reason. but the mercy west girl was like idgaf. WHAT THE HECK. OH HEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEELLLLL NO. not george. what the hell. ugly oompla loompa piece of shiz. seriously, i was so mad. who does she think she is. omg piss me off. this episode, christina cried. christina doesn't cry. she doesn't show her emotions. her passion is cardio. she like the feeling, the rush of having a heart in her hand. but no... she hasn't had that in wayyyy too long. it feels as if she's breaking apart. i hate watching all this pain. christina's tired. she wants to give up. ): thank goodness for meridith for keeping everyone positive and controlled. she's like a mother these days. OMG did i mention izzie got fired? seriously, after cancer, all izzie wanted to do was go back to work. doctors are doctors because they love it. they love saving people, they love learning, they love using their skill. it's their passion. but, the chief cut her. i hate this budget cut thing. i hate hate hate it. first the pregnant girl gets cut and now IZZIE? really IZZIE!??? she can't... ); and chief made it seem like alex karev was the one who told him that izzie wasn't ready to handle work yet. seriously!? karev personally took the time to talk to the chief to tell him that he knows there are budget cuts but he can't, CAN NOT, fire izzie. this is all she has. surgery and healing is all she has. work is the only thing that's keeping her together. it's the only reason she forces herself to be stable. work is what motivates to to stay alive. it keeps her breathing, it keeps her alive. and they took that away from her. and there was this random human resources lady who was there to watch how he fires people. she was so annoying. she didn't even give chief a chance to explain. it's izzie. she's a main character. i seriously dont know what's going to happen now. and omfg. if these mercy west people are here to stay... oh shoot. i dont know how long i can take them. i dont like them. this episode ended with izzie leaving a note for alex. alex went to meridith and christina and told them that izzie left him. Oh! for those of you guys just tuning in, alex is izzie's husband. chief webber is freaking ruining relationships!!! but besides all the negativity, frustration, and pain, there was a great theme to this episode. it was about acceptance. so we all know that callie and arizona are lesbians. callie's dad came and tried to "pray off the gay". callie was furious! he flew three thousand miles to convince her to be straight. -.- arizona being the comforting understanding girl, convinced callie to talk about this with her father. callie did. unfortunately, her dad busted out bible quotes about how man and woman are to love each other. callie's family was hardcore catholics and callie had a strong hold on the bible as well. as her dad was quoting, she quoted Jesus. she told her dad " daddy, Jesus will be ashamed to see that you turned yourback on me. to leave someone who is different.." she had some powerful verses. she had a great rebuttal. and the speech arizona had about her dad and when she came out. dang. so heart warming. everytime i watch this show, i wanna be a doctor. but i donno. iwish i paid more attention in chem sophomore year. well, i guess if i really wanna go into premed i can. but... i guess i'm just scared. it's a hard field but again, nothing in life is easy. iono! i think deep down in my heart i would always wanna be a doctor. the healing of people seem so rewarding. i wanna do waht arizona does. she's a pediatric surgeon. the moment when you tell the child and his/her family that the surgery went well or even just a speck of good news, the room lights up. the joy you see that moment, i think all the work will be worth it at that moment. all the struggle and pain the doctors have to go through, i think that moment, the moment you see that patient's happiness, everything will be worth it. i wanna work with kids because they didn't even have a chance to experience life. i wanna be the one to help them to keep moving forward. i wanna be a healer. i donno. if i still wanna be a doctor in two years, i'll change my major. i just love the idea of helping people. i have these visions while i watch this show. LOLOL it makes me so happy. sigh... we'll see!! no one knows what the future has in hold for us! this show is so inspiring. Watch Grey's Anatomy Thursdays @ 9 on ABC <3

iono why

these days i feel so down... i donno why! that's so not me. sighhh... i really dont know why. i think i just need a break. a break from nagging parents and like one day where i can rest. i can't wait till nov sats are over. then i can tell my parents to back the fck off. ughgghghghghhh... i can't post blogs till i find my optimism again. /: what's wrong wif me!

cans festival

i like flickr-ing "cans festival"
I LOOOooOOOVE street art. so beautiful

friday night lights

sorry late update!!! okayyyy. so i'm going to hc with david cho! <3 friday we had a football game where we totally owned the other school. LOL when i went out to the field to dance i see this huge red poster rolling out with a whole bunch of people holding it. when i went out it said "lee homecoming?" and in my mind i was like WHAT? it's supposed to say kim!!! cause eddie told me jessica was gonna get asked during the game. and i was like omggg what!?? and so confused. and when it was rolled out all the way it said "joanne lee homecoming?" dang on this like thirty foot ginormous poster! i saw it and was like what the heck do i do ! i have to perform right now!!!! and i was seriously like "elyssa!!! what do i do?" "KATIIEEE" ahaah freaking out. then the music started and i just danced, cause the show much go on! then when we ran off the field david was there with flowers! CUTIEEEE (: i wish someone took pictures ): oh wellls memories!

so this week is it. HOMECOMING. today i walked around school with karen and a megaphone telling people to go to hc in an alice costume HAHAh yeaaaaa. thursday night is gonna be intense worktime. fourth period on we are in asb hc mode. set up for rally & rehearse halftime and rally. shooooooooooooooot. LoL hopefully we dont end too late! and friday right after half time, we're all in the gym setting up. sorry asb. no watching the game. dont even try to sneak out. we will cut you. JK !! <33 hahahah but really.. sorry, can't watch the game. then saturday morning is sats and after is HC !!! (: so i have sats at la serna and then i have to get ready all quick cause we're going to take pictures at imigix. first time! and it's far. so we have to leave at like three.... man. i have no time!!! i've been wearing my retainers so my teeth look gooooooooood (; HEEHEHEEE i gotta mail tina my peekture LOL yeaaa, so basically, i'm super excited/nervous/anxious/happy about hc.

work was joyful as always. i love kids. OH today. i looked out and saw jordan and johnny! LOLOL random!! they came to visit karen i think. LOl and Angel, karen's cousin was like " yea... that's her BOYFRIEND" with like this disgusted face. cause i guess second graders don't like boys yet LOL but this boy joseph always goes "JOANNE MARRY ME" and i freakign laugh and go "joseph, later when you're older" and he goes "right nowooOwoowow" omg. so cute, these kids! and monday little joanne came to my room just to say bye to me. SO CUUUUUUUTE! i love life! and it's almost jessica and angela's birthday. imma make them cookies or something. they're having a freaking hello kitty birthday party. they're so rich ahah. and today danny was like angela likes me and i like her. but she likes me more HAHAHAH. like, like like. they're seven! what do they know LOLO HAHA so cute. then right after work i went to the district casue there was a school board meeting. stayed there till like eight, when the student board reps were excused. and yea. imma try to stay up tonight to start calstate and uc apps and do all my hw (: I CAN NOT SLEEP. i need so inspiration & motivation! let me be like wesleezy and not procrastinate!

p.s. i wasn't gonna update today but kyle got mad at me LOLOLOLOLOLO the first thing he said to me monday was "hi, thanks for updating -_-" HAHHAHAH hai ily sunji

wesleezy

today is wesley chen's birthday!!!! yayayyayyy! everyone tell her happy birthday and that you love her! ms.judy made her the prettiest cake ever! anyways yea. it's her day. LOL okayyy soooo comeon derek!! stop being so mysterious! ask herrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr! she's the one! she has nice legs. come onnNNnn hahahah! so at work it was so cute. jody is seriously the cutest girl ever. not that i have favorites or anything... i just help her the most LOLOL ! i'm so evil! she's so cute! she seriously reads like a baby. like "whayt da wuds next to da spellwing wuds". SOOOOOOOO EFFING CUTE! and she's gonna grow up to be so pretty. she has eyelashes like an inch long. and she's only like seven. she's so cute! okay so usually she just wears like a shirt and pants but today it was picture day at her school so she wore this yellow floral dress. SOOOOOOOO cute! <3 and jessica keeps freaking asking me i fi have a boyfriend haha. silly girl. i don't -_- and little joanne was marked with markers everywhere! i asked her why and she told me her teacher did it. so i thought she got in trouble and he marked her... but later karen told me the markers were scented so the teacher marked the kids arms casue the kids like smelling it LOL oohhh firstgraders are so cute. so today wesley told me that people already started giving teacher recs out. i freaked out! i didn't even start! so imma start today. imma research colleges that i'm interested in and read about all of them. over the weekend i'll start on the recommendation information. i seriously need to get on top of things! today at dance i was super energetic and happy. LOL i have no clue why. maybe cause we started with conditioning. i loveeee that. i was so happy during our arm exercises even though it hurt like a motherfugder. and when we did partner stretches! labaaaa those. kim was my partner. LOL so funny when she was doing her left leg. cutieeeee. we started stretches with Gravity. kim was so happy she couldn't stop smiling (: that was just for you kim! and later kenny turned on A New Day Has Come. EFFFFFFFFFFF celine dion is my favorite for ever and ever! <3 it was a good day today :D i need to stop taking naps! i dont even have time in my day to take naps. why do i do it!?? oh my not very smart! i'm not gonna sleep till i'm done with all my stuff anymore. i need to write my speech for the board meeting today and ask kenny when the first competition is. hc is just around the corner and half time needs to finish the parade script and millan needs to check out the halftime show script. We need to start getting flowers and thinking of rhymes for court! omg... so much to do. i'm nervous yet super excited. alkdjlaksjd then the week after hc is the LA game. Yeeeeeeeeeeeeedawg watch us win the wheel back (; it's eight fourteen and kyle was supposed to text me to tell me what english hw was but he's lagging it!!!! sigh... get it together kyle! LOL jk. let's hope tomorrow is another good day too ! maybe even better! (:

the picture is angel and little joanne. karen's cousins LOL little joanne looks kinda scary here but i promise she has the cutest smile ever! she didn't wanna take the picture. camera shy. soocute

firsts

today was the first house of representatives meeting. gotta say, VP jeff juarez did a fabulous job! glad to say asb set up eighty chairs in like seriously five minutes. good job team! more importantly... HOMECOMING IS NEXT WEEK. ohhhhhhhhhh shoot. time to step it up! i need to do more afterschool hours but it's hard cause i have no time afterschool! dance takes up so much time! i guess i'll just have to stay in during lunch, again. it's okay. i love asb so much <33 LOL the cutest part of today was when jordan asked karen!!!!!!!!! omg. seriously karen had the best reaction! (: yay to senior year. so jordan had a big poster that said karen louie and SOoOo much people gathered around and all shouted "karen, will you go with me now?" super loud. she was so shocked like she jumped LOL then when she realized it was for her, she cried. OMGgg effing cute. they're so cuuute mang. karen's first dance ever (: cuuuuuuuuuutie right now i'm baking sugar cookies. but i put too much butter in i think... /: it's not turning out the way i want it to!!!! sigh... gotta go back to my brownies i guess LOL cause tomorrow's a very berry adljasld very mucho special weirdo's birfdaaaaaaay. WESLEYCHEN TURNS 17! she's gonna go watch a rated R movie by herself LOL jkkk (: i'm so glad she;s my friend! no joke!!! i wish i had some free days ); it feels like i'm missing out on so much! everyone goes out after school and corliss and i are in practice. i miss summer. i realllly really miss summer school third period. so fun. i miss last year's seniors. especially my seastar tina!! ): we're both so busy we can never talk! it doesn't help that she's freaking far either! sighhhhHH lOL what the heck.. why am i so anti social! i dont even go online anymore. what's wrong with me! hahahaah. yeaaa. okay. LOL there's the dbar vs troy game this thursday! annie and sarah's schools! sarah wants me to go. but i have elite. should i just... not go to elite? LOL still deciding. oohh choices choices. sigh. whateveeeeers. don't stress. life is beautiful <3 heehee. HC IS SO CLOSE! i'm getting eggcited/nervous! hope everything turns out right, the rally, the halftime, the dance! psh! why am i worrying? asb 2010 where amazing happens (;