tired

i can't do it. i can't just love someone because i have to, or i should. sometimes it's just really hard. i try. i've been trying. but all the pain and tears he's planted in my memories pulls me back from wanting to love him. yea i'd care and cry if he died or whatevers but for the longest time, i have had no sympathy. i'm tired taking all your crap. i'm tired of getting yelled at. i'm tired of everything. i hate being in the same room with you. i dont like looking at you. i dont like your voice. i wish i only had to see you for two hours a day. to say hi and bye and that's it. i'm tired of taking your shit. i'm pretty sure we all are.